Tuesday, April 21, 2009

getting where i am going, and what brought me to going at all...

London, Paris, maybe Tokyo... wherever it may be, so long as Who i am with remains the same, contentment and satisfaction will remain mine, for i am His.

Nearly 5 years ago i chose to embark on a journey. a life filled with adventure. a life filled with the ultimate highs. where weak and lame are brought to a place where clouds are at their very feet. yet in the same breath, the mightiest man of valor is brought lower than the darkest seas. For he sees, the man that he really is.

Redeemed into this life, i am choosing to count all things as loss, that i may gain more of the One who i call my Love, Christ. though i am young and foolish, my God has saw fit to use this foolish thing that i am, to confound the wise.

I first thought, as many sometimes do, that i could make my plans, ask the Lord to bless them, and that would suffice. No. The Lord directs our steps and The Lord has a plan and a purpose for his children, and that is to love Him and to love others.

I won't be telling how i arrived at that place 5 years ago, or how i arrived at this place now. but i will tell you how i am getting where i am going, and what brought me to going at all...

I was taking a two week leave from all that i was committed to, simply that i may have a break to regain focus on life. as time pressed on and i prayed what the Lord would have me to do, nothing rang clear in my heart. so i continued to seek his face in hopes i would know in time. one week before i was scheduled to depart for wherever i was going, the Lord spoke-- Seattle.

A foolish and dear friend of mine was used in my life to give me the conviction i needed to go in confidence. i was to pack my things and head north to Emerald City.

I had made my attempts to get connected, but they came to no avail. yet, my Lord had said to GO and i would not deny his call. the evening came and i was on my way. in two days time, i had arrived.

My God had heard all my prayers on that quiet trip, and He answered them in abundance. Immediately i was welcomed into a family, a family that acted as though they had known me and been awaiting my return for so long. i grew to love them tenderly, and they me. as the place for them in my heart grew and grew, the Lord pressed upon me to count the cost of all that would be left behind, if i were to stay with this new family of mine.

Days went by with laughter and thanksgiving, yet my heart was still burdened to know my Daddy's heart. as i weighed everything on the scale of my life, i realized i need not worry, for i am being pruned. i have been blessed for my faithfulness in abiding in the vine of Living Grace. rich fruit has come from this life, and as any trained vine dresser knows, pruning must take place, so more fruit may grow.
I take heart in knowing that this fruit is an eternal fruit, that it is not in vain and not to waste. i will be with those that are being cut away from my life in due time, and that is beautiful.

So now, i continue to fix my eyes on the Planner, not my plan. For He is the One who keeps me faithful, He is the One that has called me to such a life, and He is the One that will carry me through.

I ask for your prayers on my journey, and tell you, DRAW NEAR to your Saviour. That is the purpose of these stories, to further open your eyes to the Love of your King, as i tell you how He has loved me.

1 comment:

  1. It is a beautiful thing, watching a child of God walk in the midst of an unknown journey and see how the Lord provides each step of the way! It's a blessing to be apart of the journey and to be at the finishing line, cheering you on! You are in my prayers as you prepare for your departure from the beautiful sunny California skies to the magnificent beauty of the Northwest!

    Yours in Christ,
    Ashley Vernon